yes i have to change.
I still unwell here ,staring at rob’s computer, after complaining of a migraine and damn hurt stomach for few days , I’m traditionally thinks fool as usual, I’m scared to meet the doctor, worrying myself about what kinda thunder light news I’ve to heard. I do think logically ,normally, and positively as my mother said “ your body isn’t well-proportioned , you will often catch a cold or any other disease” OK I accept it until now I think I will came under the yoke I GIVE UP I don’t want spend the rest of my life as dumb fat mama and become mockery object in the middle of friends joking stage, but I don’t mind if people think cow girl like me cant do better than a normal human, they right…now ,I cant do many things what i habitually do when I was 48kg.
Im totally sick of this, I cant do anything I want and if you know me I don’t even want to hear whispering opinion from my heart.
each day I woke up felt like I cursed by someone, and that someone is ME.
Then lets stop this guiltiness!
I HAVE TO CHANGE !!!
And if you are my friend ,support me